A mother is born.

Throughout my life I’ve struggled with believing that I’m a woman of worth.

I’ve often felt inferior to other women.

I saw myself as a weak woman who was mediocre at best.

I was never smart enough, strong enough, pretty enough or feminine enough.

I have definitely been my toughest critic.

In an almost mystical way, the woman I see when I look in the mirror now seems to be just as she should be.

This seems to come from the most empowering experience I’ve ever had;

pregnancy and motherhood.

Throughout my pregnancy I witnessed my body do all the necessary actions to give life to another human.

I labored for hours on end to bring forth this new life and found strength I never knew I had in the process.

Now as mother, I witness my body once again provide for this child.

I have a new appreciation for my body and my spirit.

I have a new confidence in my womanhood.

When I lost the triplets last year, not only did I mourn the loss of their lives but I also lost some sense of my womanhood.

I think of my triplets often.

I think of them when I look at Emery’s sweet face.

I think of them when I hear Emery’s cry.

I wonder about them often.

Though they were very very young when we lost them, I still feel like I’ve known them for years.

However, I feel like I have finally found pieces of my womanhood that were stolen away from me when I lost my triplets.

I believe I found true empowerment.

True confidence.

I no longer feel the need to judge my body, because I’ve seen and experienced its abilities.

These abilities are sacred and beautiful beyond comparison.

I have gained confidence in my natural abilities to be a mother.

I thought I would be a nervous wreck when it came to taking care of a newborn, but I’m actually at peace.

Someone I trust myself.

Motherhood has made me feel stronger, sexier, capable.

Motherhood has also revealed the love of my Creator and my God in a way I’ve never seen.

I have never prayed this often.

I have never been so thankful.

I have never felt such a need to trust God.

I have never trusted God this much.

Knowing the love I have for my child and love God has for my child has shown me that I am loved just as much as my child is.

This is empowering.

I would have never guessed the journey to motherhood would have this effect.

I am thankful that I was given the opportunity to experience the magic of pregnancy.

And I am thankful that I am now experiencing the empowering role of Mother.

The moment a child is born, the mother is also born. She never existed before. The woman existed, but the mother, never. A mother is something absolutely new.

Thank you, Creator of life, for entrusting this little girl to me and allowing me to experience the holiness of becoming a Mother.